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I stopped
But I didn’t go back to Manny
Because my tears were covering my face
Mani turned around and came in front of me
He gently lifted my chin
We looked at each other and his eyes turned to my tears
He frowned and said
– Why don’t you talk, girl?
I wrapped my hand around his waist and hugged him
I put my head on his chest and said
– There is no talking to God. I feel A stupid feeling that I can’t control
Mani stroked my hair
Arum said softly
– At least tell me what should I do to get better?
I breathed the scent of tension and said
– Just hug me.
His hand tightened around me
I don’t know how long we were like this
But little by little my tears lightened my heart
I had calmed down
But I didn’t want to be separated from Mani
Mani started stroking my hair
The movement of his hand gave me a hangover
I finally broke up with Mani
We looked at each other and said
– Thank you
He smiled and said
– I wish you would talk, anemone
I looked away from him and stared at the window behind him
Fruit trees look like paintings in the light of decorative lights
I let out a tired breath and said
– Shall we go for a walk?
Manny nodded
He took my hand and the two of us went outside, put on our shoes and started walking on the paved path between the trees.
I didn’t know what to say
where do i start
The moon was in the sky and the fragrance of the north and the leaves of the trees gave me a good feeling
Manny asked
– Do you know why they called you anemone?
I smiled and said
– My mom liked this name.
Mani also smiled and said
– I like your name too
I leaned on his shoulder and said
– Thank you I like your name too
He laughed and said
– Thank you I wish you liked me
I looked at him plaintively and said
– Manny, what are you talking about?
stood up
He looked at me and said
– It’s your fault. Why don’t you speak your mind?
I let out a heavy breath
I looked around
Mani took my arms and said
– Say anemone. say get rid of yourself
I looked at him and smiled
– I don’t know what hurts me!
Mani said firmly
– You know, but you are fighting with yourself!
It was as if I was waiting
Till Manny said this
I said quickly
– I am happy I am happy that I have the life I have now. But I am sad that my path so far was full of pain. But I am sad that my family treats me like a dishonor. I’m sad that I don’t have any support and I’m on your neck. I am sad that if we have a child one day, he will not have an aunt, no one, and nothing from my side. I am sad that I cannot go to my mother’s land. I’m sad, I don’t have a wedding. I am sad that my family thinks badly about me. I’m sorry I didn’t study. I’m sad that I don’t have any art, I’m sad that I don’t have a place in my dad’s old house anymore. I’m sad that I don’t have a normal commute like other people. I’m sad that you love me so much and I don’t have good morals like a person. I am sad that I have no independence. I am sad to have a child, I have no help. I’m sad
I was saying the same
I was crying and Mani just looked at me
I am finished
He pulled me into his arms and said
– Have you lost weight?
I nodded
I was really light. Many of the things I said seemed ridiculous to me now
But when I was in my heart, it was a heavy burden
Mani kissed my cheek and said
– Thank you for telling me your discomfort, we will solve many of them together
This post is written by Rowyaaa